The Journal

by | Jan 21, 2019

I want to introduce you to Francyn. I have only met her a handful of times. When I first met her, she brought me to tears sharing her incredible story in front of a room full of strangers.

Alicia introduced us and is the only connection I have to Francyn. When Alicia talks about this young woman, she lights up with joy because she is an eyewitness to the beautiful things that God is doing in her life.

One night, Alicia asked if she could stop by my house after work. Of course, I said “Yes!” The doorbell rang and it was Alicia and Francyn. I was surprised, confused & excited to see her.

We sat on my couch & Francyn said she had something to give me. She handed me the journal pictured above. When I opened the journal I saw that it was almost full, every page, even in the margins, with specific prayers and declarations for my life.

As she told me the story of the journal I was blown away!

Around the end of September, on her way back to California, she felt the Lord prompting her to begin a prayer journal for me. A woman that she had only met a handful of times, who she really only knew about through Alicia.

How would she do this? She didn’t know me. God was nudging her to pray and trust that He would provide the words she would write. This sounded crazy to her.

She tried to start it twice but wasn’t totally into it and ended up starting over, using up the two spare journals she had in her house. Now she didn’t even have a journal to use…

What if she had quit?

Out of the blue, a friend gave her a journal as a present, with Proverbs 3:5 on the cover. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart”. At that point, she was all in. She began praying and seeking God’s heart on my behalf. The thoughts that came into her mind were clear and focused as she wrote page after page… for a stranger.

At times, Francyn would call or text Alicia asking if what she was hearing from God about me was true. Alicia never answered her directly. She beautifully encouraged Francyn to just keep writing & listening.

That Friday night as she handed the journal to me and told me the story behind it, I was speechless. You see, the last few months had been an intense time for me. I had been battling fear, insecurity, and doubt…each and every one of the things I was struggling with, she addressed specifically in the journal.

As I read the journal I pictured a mirror. When I looked in the mirror, all I saw was my fear & doubt while on the other side of the mirror God spoke through Francyn encouraging me every step of the way.

How did she know the details of my life?

It was God that knew. God saw me; He saw my struggles and my weaknesses. He placed it on Francyn’s heart to help pray me through it. He left the evidence to show His love, that He sees me, hears my prayers, and knows the depth of my heart on the pages of this journal.

During those three months, I had no idea what was happening so many miles away. I had no idea that Francyn was locking arms with me and praying me through with very specific, accurate, loving prayers from the Father’s heart.

Can you imagine my emotions as she handed the journal to me?

To say I was wrecked and emotional is an understatement. I could pinpoint specific things that she spoke to and really see the footprints of God as He was with me through every moment.

I felt so alone during those few months…

I wonder if some of you are in that space right now. Please know, you are not alone!

In moments of your hardest, unbearable suffering when you feel like you can’t take it anymore: God sees you.

In moments when you have to make quiet decisions that impact big things: God sees you.

When you are in an emotional wilderness and feel unseen, invisible:God sees you!

Francyn thought that the journal was just going to be about me. She soon realized that we were both going to learn through her brave step of faith. I am not sure who was more shocked at the accuracy of the journal, her or me. Would it shock you to know that Francyn is only 18-years-old?

She experienced what it felt like to clearly hear from God, step out in reckless abandon, and go for it. In her moments of writing, she thought she was probably just guessing at what she was putting in the journal. When she saw my reaction, she realized they weren’t just words, they were words from the heart of God.

I want to recognize that it is a CRAZY thing to get a journal from someone you don’t know, filled with words that are so precise you wonder if she had read your journal first.

We don’t always get that specific, definite, beyond a shadow of a doubt type of encouragement. Sometimes God feels silent to us, far away, or uninvolved. In times like that, we long to catch a glimpse of His love in our everyday lives.

If you feel far from God at this moment, my hope is that this journal will be an encouragement for you. Know that He sees you, even when you don’t feel seen.

His heart is to meet you wherever you are. Even when you aren’t looking for Him, He will never stop looking for you.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Proverbs 3:5-6

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5 Comments

  1. Tiffany

    Oh my goodness! I have goosebumps and my eyes are misty over reading this. Thank you so much for sharing. It’s a wonderful reminder that God is in the midst of our greatest victories and our hardest trials, even if it isn’t obvious to us at the time. Well done!

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    • Denisha Workizer

      Thank you, Tiffany! I love what you said, “even if it isn’t obvious to us at the time.” Isn’t that true! Great point!

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  2. Venezza miller

    Wow! This has left me speachless I am love how GOD works he is so amazing I am in the process of understand proverbs 3: 5-6 ALICIA I LOVE YOU AND I ADMIRE BOTH THE WORK GOD IS DOING THROUGH YOU AND DENISHA

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    • Denisha Workizer

      Venezza, would love to hear what you are learning about Proverbs 3:5-6. How is that passage coming alive in your life?

      Reply
  3. Heather Dresser

    What an amazing story to think that that prayer warrior was praying for you.! It is such a blessing❤️

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